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Indecision 2008…

February 8, 2008

No, I’m not talking about the current politics going on (though I did steal the line from the hilarious Jon Stewart’s Daily Show).

Instead, I’m talking about the issue writers face when choosing where to go next or what project to work on next.

I think of this because Marissa has so many ideas in her head, and I think it’s hard for her to choose what the best one is to focus on. It’s hard to decide with a “what I really want to write” combined with “what’s going to sell?”. These are tough, tough decisions, because in all reality, the two may not be the same book. What you’re dying to write now may not be what’s popular right now, what editors are craving right now, or what might eventually sell.

But what if you have two books in your head that you’re dying to write – one you know will sell, and one that MIGHT sell. You’re focused on both, you’re driven to write both, but one keeps talking to you because you really feel this is THE ONE that’s going to make you.

What does this all have to do with me? No, I’m not contemplating my next project like Marissa, as alas, I still have not finished my first one. It’s the direction I need to take my current one. I’m sitting in the middle of the book as I have had no time since October to write at all between the pregnancy, editing, and planning the WCP 5th Anniversary Bash. There’s been NO TIME.

But now I find myself with time. Just a little, but enough that I can make myself write. And I WANT to write, I’m DRIVEN to finish this story. This is what I needed.

But where is my story going? How do I know I’m taking it in the right direction? IS there a right direction? Should I keep it straight contemporary or add suspense? Can I make it long enough with straight contemporary? Should I just shoot for category length and end it there?

This is what I’m going through right now. My very own Indecision 2008. What’s yours? Are you contemplating a change in direction in your work, be it a new story or within a current work?

ETA: I’m not worried about writing for selling right now. I’m just worried about the direction the story’s going. I know it could sell as straight contemp OR suspense, so I’m not thinking of that, but if the story is going ANYWHERE, lol.


Writing To Write? Or Writing To Sell?

November 17, 2007

Lately I’ve been in a quandry. As you all know, I’m working on a witches story. Well, of course, the paranormal market is saturated, totally filled up, so I get to thinking: Will my book sell? Then I start second guessing my talent, is my writing good enough to make this book good enough to sell? Or should I write something else? Should I just focus on my contemporaries, finish the category books I’ve started, rather than keeping on with the witches even though I’ve now got the storyline nailed in my head?

All these “should I’s” and “what if’s” are ruining my writing mojo. Seriously. I’m losing perspective of WHY I’m writing. Hell yes, I want to sell a book so it gets published, but more than anything I want to tell my stories and share them with the world and hopefully they will enjoy them as much as I do. I want to tell them in my way. I want to tell my stories, the ones that are screaming in my head right now rather than the ones that would end up coming out mediocre because I wrote what I thought would sell.

Sigh. It’s so hard being a writer sometimes, knowing which path to take, which story to tell first when you’ve got ump-teen in your head just waiting to be told by you. This is where self-confidence and self-esteem come in… believe in your ability to tell a story that others will want to read, a story that editors know others want to read and will want to buy.

When self doubt comes creeping in, it’s never pretty and certainly never fun, and that’s where I found myself yesterday. Full of doubt in my abilities to tell my witches story well enough that the editors out there are going to like it despite the fact that the paranormal market is hard to break into. So I talked to my sister, Kate, and felt a little better. Then I chatted on Yahoo with gal pal and fellow Bradford Buncher Lauren Dane who had me talking it all out and explaining the why’s and how’s of it all, a conversation which I walked away from feeling much, much better about myself, my writing, and my ability to tell a story.

So today, after I finish working the day job, I’ll be getting back to my witches story as I’ve now regained the confidence to do so, the confidence that unwillingly seeped away for a brief period of time and will undoubtedly do so again in the future.

But you know what? I’m a writer. I love it, and I’m going to tell you a story, one that I hope the editors will like enough so that I can share it with you, and one that I hope you’ll enjoy.